School Gurlz

Me with my sister, we're smiling even though we're boring...you know what? i cried because i miss my OLD SCHOOL so much...i'm not happy here...there's nothing special being Bibians...i wish i can turn back time & i'm still Didians...ohh my teachers, besties...& everything is now not with me...i hated here! :( 

Update?

Hi reader,
hello blogger?

long time no see eh?
i've been a little busy nowaydays...haha...maybe? or maybe...i just don't really know what should i put as a title of my new entry. it's not because i've lost ideas. but because there're so many things in my head. so it's stuck...hahaha! what a silly haninah! ohh yeah, before this i've said that i really wanted to be a good cheerleader..but wait till school holiday ends. & now, i've met new school. but they don't have cheers here! so i ain't gonna be a cheerleader here...ouch! it's breaking my heart...ohh how i wish i can go back to my old school...i miss my buddies there!! i don't like being here... grrr!

NOw i know

That he is the biggest liar i ever met. but why should i care?
he's nothing to me... NO WORDS because there's NO USE...
no use at all..

Tangis

Makin ku lawan...makin ku lemah...setiap kali ku ingin pejamkan mata, aku terlihat dia...sahabat yg berjanji akan setia...cinta hancurkan persahabatan...musnahkan harapan...semua terjadi dan berulang lagi dan lagi...tangis cuba ku tahan...makin ku tahan hati ku berdarah...tangis ku tangis menderita... ):

Memang Salahku

Aku ubah fikiran bila aku cakap aku hepi setiap kali dia antar sms dkt aku.
sekarang nie, pdku... smsnya cuma satu gangguan...
bila aku ckp MULAI ARI NIE AKU BKN LG KWN BAIK KAU.
aku memang rasa sedih. haninah...terimalah hakikat, perkara yang sama tak mungkin akan berulang dengan cara yang sama. hidup... persahabatan... percintaan...
tiada yang akan berulang kembali mengikut suka hati aku.

Semalam...
aku t'bangun dr tidur sbb ada org antar sms.
DIA LAGI?
tiba2 aku rasa air mata mengalir...hukhuk...
smpi skg aku xreply msg2 dia...
sedihnya bila kwn baik kita sekali lg lenyap dr idop!

Ha? sebenarnya mcm mana kau boleh jd sahabat aku skali lg?
lupakan lh...maybe nie akan jd last entry ttg kau. maybe jak lh.

ari nie

aku d'panggil pegi keja, tlg packing mainan... pas2 kan dkt atas kedai 2 ada mcm 1 studio. ada byk alat musik...woohow!! aku men gitar karen, bass...keyboard, drum & mcm2 lg.. sebelum nie ndak pernah main alat musik yg byk mcm 2...excitednya! hehe...

okay, ari nie aku ndak mo byk ckp or cepiking2...
abu safwan sms aku hampir setiap ari...
aku hepi sgt bila dpt sms dr dia, tp!!
aku reply kdg2 jak..lgpun zaman skg nie aku slalu teda kdit.
byk lg cita pasal abu safwan...hehe...tp nnt jak lh aku cita...

kamu tau?
aku suka dia sejak dr umur 12 taun...sbb dia romantik dan bijak...
dia lelaki pertama yg jd bestfriend aku.
sejak aku umur 12 TAHUN...
skg aku 15 TAHUN...
tp skg aku ndak suka dia lebih dr sorg kwn...

ohh aku harap dia masih boleh jd kawan baik aku mcm dulu, tp dlm mimpi kali boleh laa....

Memories! ♥

How i used to tell everyone, how i love to play guitar!
but when my guitar is broken, later my heart went the same way...

     Memories,
every time when i'm playing guitar,
i remember him...
i remember yoo...
& i remember who we used to be...

     I also remember, how i used to get hurt....
how i used to be cured...
how we use to walk together...
how you used to say,
"that you'll be mine forever..."

     When you left me, to be with her...
i used to regret myself...
saying that everything was my fault cuz i can't look after yoo...
i'd put all the blame on me,
yet never turn the blame on yoo even you are the one who leaves me...

     Memories,
before i saw you kissing with that Nurul Nadia,
everything yoo do is never wrong, even yoo curse & scold me...
even yoo leave & come back to me...
i don't care what my friends said, & what they told me,
how bad you've been...
yet i'd never try to erase my love for you.

BUT BUT BUT....
after i know that i'm no longer the only one girl you have...
suddenly all the feelings that used to stay in my heart FADED AWAY.

But this is just a memory.. ♥

Histeria

Abis badan momy lebam2, kena tumbuk... abis kepala orang binjul2 kena baling baldi... abis semua lelaki kesakitan sebab kena terajang OLEH AKU.

Aku yang sebenarnya bukan aku....
fuhh! DAHSYAT amat!
kalau aku boleh jadi sekuat itu kan hebat.
tapi yang ndak beknya aku kasi sakit orang yang ndak patut aku sakiti.
sampai ustaz pun kena tumbuk oleh aku,
abang2 yang gendut2 pun aku tumbuk...

wahh!! hebat! beranienya aku!!!??
gila!
aku bukannya jahat sangat sampai sanggup pukul
orang tanpa sebab...

CATAT REKOD!
selama nie aku histeria ndak pernah pun seteruk ini.
melampau!
nasib baik tiada yang mati...!!

Sudah dua kali aku kena histeria dekat rumah
KERAS tuu...

Ada orang cakap aku ganggu tempatnya dekat block
kosong masa kami wt gotong royong,
JADI CLEANER ari tuu...

Ada orang kata aku lemah semangat,
dan senang kena rasuk.

Ada orang kata DIA suka dekat aku....

Ada orang kata lagi, aku tekanan... 

DAN diorang semua kata,
"KAU OKEYH TAK NIE?"

Hey, jangan lh takut dekat aku please....
aku takkan bunuh korang...
tapi mungkin DIA tuu yang akan bunuh korang melalui aku.
maaf....

ANSWER

I made the decision,
I'M NOT GONNA MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE
ONCE AGAIN....

Sorry... yoo can put the blame one me.

Tired

Frankly,
i think i'm not nothing!
but i'm just tired of everything...

"no one will ever know what i felt inside"
this is what these idiots used to say,
i'm just tired...

i'm so tired with my life...
i'm just too tired...

my momy said, "don't loose hope."

we're just a servant of Him.
but i'm just tired....
so tired...

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Past is past

Kuala Lumpur, Damansara, Malaysia

Why must yoo be a simple human being when you knew that you're not really simple? By the way I guess I'm a complicated young lady.. always seeking for the best answer of my life. even though I'm only 14. would yoo like to listen? the expression of my heart... - yoo may call me Haninah or whatever yoo want as long as that is one of my full name. - I can talk in spanish language, a bit maybe! haha! (credit to Fanni Macias & Luis A. Arias Escalante) - I love my m0my & my Family more than I love him. - & I love him more than what you think. - Life is very hard & confusing, but so far.. I always get the best answer. :) - & now I'm trying to seek for one more another answer. I wish I could find it! Amen. (2010) 

Changed

Hey there...

life is now changed.

i'm just a little girl caught in the middle life.
am alone...
without a lover,
yet never alone without friends & family...

^.^" i love them so much!!

For the first ever time

I am a cheerleader!!

decided

i say i wanna be a football player...
but, now i'm a cheerleader,
get ready for the competition!!

let us bet Perdana!
Wira will win... hahaha....

JUst Really wantED to Say...

I miss my free time so much!!

hey dear blogger nor reader,
i'm missing this cyber world so much!! ^.^"
hope i will had time next time...

see yoo!! & all the best!!

Secret!

Hey yoo, yoo know want? i wanna tell yoo
a secret. the thing that 0nly Wardah knows....

hehehe...

since bef0re i work in DC,
i had searched for the j0b...

& I prayed so much once again
I prayed that Allah will help.
I read Nurun Nubuwwah
every time after i did my prayer...

I didn't tell anyone that Allah
heard my voice,
praying once again...

I really wanted but for no one is
knowing that i had searching &
looking for the vacancy,
the days before I got that offer to work
at DC.

BUT,
it's still just like a dream came true.
Alhamdulillah!

Ya Allah,
please protect me wherever I go....

With the name of Allah,
nothing on earth and the sky would
harm you... InsyaAllah.

                             Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin!

Here we go! I'm gonna tell you something!

I woke up at 4 in the morning today so that i can play the internet without rushing... huuhuu...i'm very busy nowadays....studying...working...studying...working... Ya Allah...Ya Allah... Allahuakbar!
I go to the work at 2, it's supposed to be after school?
yeah, & you know how can a 14-year-old get an offer to work?

  I went to the shop to top my credit up, with my m0my bout 5 days ago...
and the thing goes this way....
"haiiyahh, you speak very fast, zero one seven?" he's writing my phone number, i told him again my phone number, I spoke it in English...
"Okay lo," That an old tauke is typing something, his eyes glued at the screen of his c0mputer...m0my b0ught a new ph0ne number using my IC.
"You're working or study?"
"Working..." i don't realize this sentence!! really! haha!
"Huh?" m0my looking at me,
"Oppss!! hahaha!! I'm studying!!" and yeah, of course i'm studying...i'm 14! going 15! why do all people around me keep on asking me "where you work?" 
"She's my daughter," momy told that tauke,
"Ohh! how old are you?" he said again without looking at me, his still typing...
"15, PMR candidate..." I told him...
"Ohh, SPM ahh?" What? I said am PMR candidate & not SPM.... PMR is an exam for a 15 years 0ld student, while SPM is for the 17s! -.-" how could yoo tauke... 
"Not SPM, but PMR." I said, & m0my is laughing... we're talking using Malay & sometimes English language...
"She's my eldest,"  m0my said. hehe...
"Nyalo, i'm looking for a shop assistant maa..." huh? okay, and then why would yoo tell me & my m0my? i'm not going to work here. 
"Ohh..." we're just n0dding.
"Hah, i wanna work!"
"Saya mau kerja, saya mau kerja!" wahh!! I'd never expect to say this sentence, suddenly  my mouth is just speaking by it's own mind. -.-" My momy is  surprised, & open her eyes too wide.
"You really wanna work?" That tauke is now looking at me,
"She's in school..?" i don't know if momy is trying to ask, or to tell that tauke.
"Never mind lo, she can come here after school." that tauke told m0my.
"When yoo wanna start?" he continued.
"I can come here tomorrow at 2!" i said..
"Okay lo," he said, wearing a smile.
"How about the salary?" momy asked him. then he took out the pen & paper from i don't know where. he started to write something, the salary, hehe...i'm not gonna tell yoo about my m0ney, it's secret! ;P 
"Okay la,she's really good at the computer you know, and she knows everything about the phone." m0my start to praise me in front of that tauke.
"That's better maa... If you know how to use a computer, it's enough okay lo." he said an gave my IC back to me.
"Okay aa... I come here tomorrow!" i said, putting  my IC in my hand-beg. okay, okay, okay, how many lo?    
We're now stepping to leave that shop, whoa, i smile too wide. & on our way to the h0me, i, & momy is keep on talking 'bout THE MONEY & THE  EXPERIENCES that I would face later...

      Hahahaha, okay...now yoo knew how can a 14- opps! going 15 this year... old girl can get that job. :D

Entri kedua di tahun 2011

Bahasa Melayu.

Taukah betapa penatnya kepalaku berfikir...
aduhh2...dkt pukul 3 pagi jugak baru aku dpt tidur
smlm.ehh td.

Cakap pasal kwn!!!

Hati Besar cakap,

"Kau tak nak maafkan dia,jd aku boleh buat apa yg kau sdg buat.
aku tak nak maafkan kau." hati besar marah pdnya.

aku cuma diam.

"Saling memaafkan itu baik, sedangkan Nabi ampunkan umat. jgn panjangkan masalah yg pendek.." hati kecik memujuk.

aku bingung!

"iyah, klu mcm tu, kenapa dia pun ndak jak maafkan kwn kita yg satu tu? manusia buat kesalahan..dan bukannya dia teda buat salah."

okeyh okeyh!! fine...kamu bergaduh jak lh yah Hati2 ku...
lgpun aku pun ndak tau apa azam aku tahun nie.

masa yg pagi 1 januari ari tu, aku tulis mcm2 azam dkt kertas dan ambik 3.
aku dapat...

1. Hp Nokia N95
2. Khatam Al-Quran
3. Ada bestie dan m0 tangkap gmbr sama2 lepas 2 upload g FB.

adakah org punya azam mcm nie? hahaha....
ohh yah, yg bestie tu...klu boleh aku mau yg ndak lh menyusahkan dan
menyakitkan hati. sekurang-kurangnya kau boleh menjaga hati.

Hp nokia N95, aku pernah pakai masa tahun 2009.
tp sudah hancur.. hehe!

Khatam Al-Quran untuk kali yg kedua. sepautunya aku m0 azam khatam 3 kali tahun nie...
tp....lebih baik klu kita belajar pelan2 dan fahami betul2 maksud dan ertinya dlm2... hehe!


Ohh yah, aku sedih masa mo pegi Classique Musica td. sbb belum byr yuran...
masa aku masuk g CM, mrs. Puah membebel guna bahasa inggeris..
dia ckp pasal buku record. aku kata "okay mrs."
"and you can pay after class.."
"umm...mrs. puah...can i pay next week?" takut sudah nie.hehe..
"can..." dgn senyuman yg melebar..

   HAPPY.. oii DUIT! cepatlah kau datang klu ndak aku kena buang kelas.
hahahha!!!

Something's New

Hello dear reader!! & hi dear blogger!!
   I had not publish any post for two days,
and yeah..
I counted the days that I don't have a change
to publish my story...
and update my status on the Facebook..
hey, you kn0w what?

I'm going to tell the wh0le world that
I've got an _______.
now. haha! you know what is that?

   The thing I've been wait for Almost 3 years.


But maybe you're not supposed to know that
as if you never know what am I meant for.
haha! but && I'm really happy today!!

Omg....& I had no nightmares after the day
I told you I had.

    2010 is almost leaving us...
& 2011 is coming soon...

Still, I wish I have many days in 2010...
because if 2010 gone.
It'll will never be mine again...

There's so many things happened on this year,
and I almost think that this is the most bad
year I ever owned.
Yet it changed again.

Ouch! I had no more time left.
But I've got so much story left.

See Yoo Later...

& Thank You S0 Much For Reading Expression Of My Heart. ;)

A Question & An Answer

   Ya Allah....

I've been praying every time after I did my prayer,

I've been searching for Your answers...

   For Almost 3 Years.

Ya Allah...

Why You still not give me the answer that I've

been seeking for so many years...

Ya Allah...

Only You knows,

the single word that come from the bottom of

my heart...

Ya Allah...

Even though they don't see the tears that rolled

down my face the moment I feel the pains,

I knew You will always see me.

hear me...

And I knew since from the start,

that You will always here with me...

Ya Allah,

I'm Puteri Essnina Haninah Tush-Syahidah,

is here prostrating...

Was hoping for Your sorry...

Begging for Your answer... 

The tears keep on rolling down my

chubby cheek...

Ya Allah...

Today,

You gave me Your answers, 

for the questions that had been 

stayed in my heart for a quite

long... 

Ya Allah...

Forgive me for I had been so

impatient and thought that

You will never give me the answers.

    I'm Puteri Essnina Haninah Tush-Syahidah Binti Adin,

hereby, is thanked Allah so much for the miracle. 

   Allahuakbar! 

   Thank You Allah. 

Alhamdulillah!

I finally completed reading the Holy Quran.
Allahuakbar! This is my first time completed
my read of Al-Quran...

   Praise Be To Allah.

My wishes at last came true...
My determination on 2010 has been fulfilled.
 & now I can spend the rest of this
year peacefully...

And Today.....

   I felt so happy yesterday when my foster brother told me that he is willing to help me create a song use the lyric I wrote... & he will ask his friend to help. Coco Band!
   I had never know that my foster brother has an artist friend,
i smile too wide till i think my face might crack with that smile.

  & I became happier when I told it to mommy,
mommy said, "It's Great, BUT No Boy Friend Allowed!"
"yeah, mom." I answered..

   That is all what mommy's worrying about...
She just doesn't want me to have a BF.

   & I WON'T EVER HAVE A BF AGAIN!!!!
for this season I mean...hehe...
I promised, and I won't make my mommy
fell in troubles once again just because I've got a BF.

   Mommy is my everything since I was born.
but it changed when the world had some changes,
it changed.
but i know the reality will never change.

    I LOVE YOU MOMMY!

Ohh yeah! Today I cried till my eyes are swollen
just because mommy can't teach me read the Holy Quran!
(she can't with some reason...hehe..)

   My baby sister suggest "m0my to send me to the mosque,"
m0my won't has time. -.-"
"h0w about to granny's?"
"hey Nini! that is just same!" i yelled.

   Then when start to cry again.

"Madi, Madi! sister asks you if you're willing to teach her
the Holy Quran, she's going to complete the reading!" Nini says and knocking the door.
" Just open the door,"
"can you help?"
" InsyaAllah." he replied.
"when?" he continued..

    "h0w about now, can?"

At last he agreed and I thanked him so much.
& now i'm in juzuk 30. Alhamdulillah...
I had prayed so much in the heart that
Allah will give a help...
& He finally gave me an answer when he
send Madi to help me.... ;)

  & if there's n0 problem,
i'm going to complete the reading of Al-Quran
tomorrow, InsyaAllah...

Dreams?

I really really wish that I could be a writer.. I wanna have my own books..

I want them to read the story I created by myself. 

I wanna publish my own novel. 

I know I'm the biggest dreamer on earth! Hehe... 

But I could be just whoever I wanna be, InsyaAllah. 

Changes

I changed my blog title, I used "Semua Tentang Hati" as a new title of my blog.

"Semua Tentang Hati" or in English is "All About Heart"

I would like to write in English language so that the whole world can get it.

& they will understand my story,

it's all about my heart...

But occasionally yoo can't even understand

the story that I'm going to publish,

or the story I published by just reading.

By just listening...

The neglected oral...

How do I expect the whole world to understand me? 

By just publishing my story? 

Namia (Pengenalan)

Namia! Namia! Wah, sungguh, hatiku berbunga-bunga saat terdengar nama gadis itu...

Namia! Oh Namia! Belum pernah aku bertemu gadis sepertimu! 

Tajuk Namia nie aku dapat selepas berperah otak untuk mendapatkan nama2 watak dkt novel yg akan aku tulis nnt...dan selepas bersms dgn kwn Lelaki Paling Rapat aku...(Nama Di Rahsiakan) tp lain yg m0 di carik lain jugak yg aku dpt...untuk novel...belum lg kut...wlupn aku minat sgt menulis so far aku belum pernah tulis novel...sbb bkn senang kan mau tulis novel, dgn bahasa lg...ayat, nama,tempat, situasi, sbb 2 lh klu mau pandai kena bykkan membaca, nah, itulah...aku mmg suka sgt membaca dan menulis....sejak kecik! eheehe...aku taukah yg skrg nie sudah jam berapa? hahahaha....assalamualaikum...ohh sebelum 2, aku m0 berterima kasih pd Namia! Thanks yah Namia! 

Sila nantikan cerpan atau cerpen bertajuk  Namia, Episod 1...

Akan Datang........ jeng jereng... heeehee! 

Biodata

-.-" Or whatever,

Puteri Essnina Haninah Tush-Syahidah Adin,sweet 14 on 2010...loves writing,reading and listening...i love malay,english,chinese,spanish and my sabahan language...i love mah families and the friends! i love pink! i love mah babies doll, i like milk, chocolate and an ice-cream..music and drama...i will tell the world that im suffering when im really suffering..i will tell the world that im happy when im really happy...i love to teach, && i wish i could be a good teacher one day! but teacher wasn't mah ambition actually,i wanted to be a detective, scientist and astronaut! (those are my ambition since i was kid..) ohh btw i once been a teacher in my aunt's tuition centre when i was 13..it was last year...and i also, once be a clerk! at the same time i be a teacher...many time i be a waitress, :P (helping family) ohh && also a cashier! i was only 13 when the manager in mom's restaurant asked me to handle the restaurant,so that's mean,i also once be a manager for only one day! hahaha! >.<" frankly, im left-handed but i played guitar use my right-handed as someone taught me how to play use this hand..but there's no problem with that...&& now that one is not gonna teach me more because he is gone,but no worries as i succeed persuaded m0my to send me to the guitar class...& of course im not gonna skip any class! i wish i could be a good guitarist... :D i wish i will finish reading Koran this year...also i, wish that i could be a good Qariah...InsyaAllah, i will make my parents proud of me...i will never let them disappointed once again! uhhuu! have i ever make them feel that way? maybe? hey!! human beings make mistakes!! if yoo think yoo are enough perfect that yoo can be a judger, yoo're definitely wrong!

Aku

Aku masih terlalu muda untuk dilarang,
terlalu baik untuk diburukkan...
terlalu tinggi untuk direndahkan,
dan terlalu penting untuk diremehkan..

Namun aku,
terlalu mentah untuk memahami erti sebuah kehidupan..
yg pasti aku tak akan putus harapan...

Azam

Lagi 2 bulan berakhirlah tahun 2010 nie...

masih banyak kata-kata untuk ditulis sebelum kau pergi,

yg penting masih ada azam yg belum terlaksana!

Woh0o.............

2 bulan!!!

sempatkah kita???

        Jeng... jereng. 

hehehe... ;P 

tunggu dan lihat ja. 

Only 14!

I'm only 14 years old... But talk so much about love!! haha! Now I realized... That I'm too young to worry about love! Realized!

(July 8, 2010)

At the END!

After this 28th of july is gone...he will be my past...and he'll stay in the past forever... he'll passing with that day...

July 5, 2010

Try to read my heart,
it is written with red ink..
it is bloody...
Try to read the oral neglected..
obsolete and abandoned...

At the heart of the owner ...
Where is the promise that was
you give...

Who I am to continue to seek,
My personal sense that you've deny...

Broker!
In case you are not been peace ...
Please believe!
My spirits that haunt ...

July 5, 2010

You're the one who always listen to my annoying voice...
the voice when I'm crying...
Is there any possibility for me,
to hear you,
when you was mad...
you're mad because of love...

But now,
she says you're the one that her loves...
She warned me to do not create any
pains that will make both of you
suffering...

You're in love with her?

I've fell apart...
I'm just your past...

And now like the house that no one in...
You're the one who found the key of this
door,
you're the one that have opened this
door...
door of heart...

If you ever know,
My love will haunt you till
THE END OF MY LIFE....

Just because you're my lover...

Every promise that you've promised...
Every words that you're using by...
The words that you've broken off...

You've paid through the love you gave...
Are you really sincere love me...
Or just because you feel the sympathy...
For without you, I'm dying...

I don't know..
Who's in your heart...
Who's the one,
that have your heart...

Are you really love me,
or you're here just because you don't want to hurt
my feelings...

If I could hear the voice of your heart,
I am not the one that you liked...
She's more...
I am just none...
None of your love that made for me...

By; me
(July 5 2010)

Aku Yang Terseksa

Berlalu sudah malam yang menyeksakan... Dimana dia saat aku kesakitan... Jasadmu hadir dalam tidurku... Sampai sudah saatnya untuk aku berlalu.. Dari hidupmu... Biarkan ku pergi tanpa perlu menanti jawapan mu.. Gugur sudah dedaun yang merekah itu... Jasadmu sampai dalam tidurku.. Engkau menangis dalam mimpiku.. Ku ingin kau bahagia dalam idopmu.. Kenapa tidak kau biarkan saja aku berlalu.. Agar tidak aku menjadi punca deritamu...

Walau terlambat...ku ingin ucapkan..ini untuk abah...

Bertahun-tahun sudah ku lalui tanpa menyambut hari ini bersamamu!
Abah... Ayah yang ku sayangi...
Hero yang ku sanjungi...

Dimana tempat ku tika bersama mu?
Dimana diri mu tika ku memerlukan mu?

Hilang cahaya, datanglah kegelapan...
Hilang sudah ayah ku dari kehidupan...

Bilakah akan sempurnanya hidupku...
Jika keadaan kekal begini?

Aku tidak mengharap kebahagiaan dari kesempurnaan...
Sekurang-kurangnya dari kasih sayangmu abah! =(

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aku ndak tau lh knp nama penuh aku panjang sgt....pelik betul...kdg2 klu org tanya aku apa nama mu aku pun ndak tau mau bgtau yg mana 1...selalunya aku ckp haninah tp lau dorg tanya family aku nnt dorg ckp puteri...aku baru 14 taun taun nie..tp kdg2 org ingat sudah amik spm...pas2 kdg2 org ckp aku main2...nie lg 1,adik aku si nini nie...aku tulis profile guna bahasa melayu and sabahan pun dia terkejut... "aik!? knp kau tulis mcm 2 kak? bukankah kau selalu tulis bahasa inggeris... hehe..mmg pun aku suka tulis guna bahasa inggeris, lgpun lau tulis bahasa melayu nnt kwn2 org putih aku ndak faham..hehe...bahasa inggeris 2 kan bahasa penghantar ke 2 negara kita...so ramai gak rakyat malaysia yg fhm bahasa inggeris..jgn jd yg mcm dkt iklan 2 sudah...nampak minah saleh dia kacau sekalinya dia menjawap "u jalan straight u don't belok2..." hahaha!! lucu betul...hurm..banyak lg aku mau tulis,tp nnt bapak sdara aku yg nombor 2 tuu mau guna kompuer ndak sempat save update nie...kcian aku...ohh kalau kamu semua mau tau...aku nie cucu perempuan pertama nenek dgn atok...aku nie jugak cucu kesayangan dorg...mmg best tau jd aku...tp kdg2 ada jugak yg ndak best... tp yg paling best masa taun lalu 2...aku jd kerani and jd cikgu dkt pusat 2cen mama ess...iaitu makcik aku...excited gila aku bila budak2 tuu panggil aku cikgu...huhuhu...sbnrnya byk lg pengalaman hidup yg bermakna...tp panjang sgt lh klu mau di tulis.......

Kami Best Friends BaH..............

Klu kamu semua mau tau,Farhanah sorg jak kawan baik aku dekat puch0ng nie...aku ada jugak kawan2 lain...tapi ndak lh rapat sgt mcm aku dan dia...kdg2 dia menyakitkan hati gak....tapi so far klu kami gado pun kami akan berbaik balik....kami mcm adik2 beradik sudah...sampai aku rasa aku lagi rapat ngn dia dari adik2 aku yg lain...kami berkawan sudah setahun lebih...first time aku jumpa dia masa dkt pusat tuisyen Mama Ess...masa tuu aku jadi kerani,Ma Ess yg suruh...lama2 aku glamerz...hukhuk...byk sgt pengalaman yg aku dpt selama berada dkt pusat tuisyen tuu...yg sedih,happy...yang pahit...and yg manis gak...itu adalah pengalaman hidup yg amat bermakna untukku....dan ianya telah tersimpan rapat di dlm memori abadi.....ia yg xkan terulang lagi....

This page is gonna changes!

Maybe, because the title of this page is My life note of 'cinta'... And I used to write my love poems here... And of course, it's just for my lover.. ;) BUt I think I wanna write somethings different here... Somethings that sound like... MY DIARY!! haha... should I? ohh, I know... no one will answering me, because... there's no one here... =/

Bukan Bawang Merah

Hari itu aku duduk di atas buaian...
bermain buai seorang diri..
tidak berteman...
kerana aku tiada teman...
tiba-tiba,aku teringat akan cerita
bawang merah bawang putih,
di zaman dahulu...
bukan versi yang baru...
ohh? baru aku teringat...
hari itu aku juga memakai baju berwarna merah,
manakala aku menggunakan tudung
yang berwarna merah jambu...
tidak seperti bawang merah yang
hanya berkemban sambil bermain buai
di bawah pepohon nan rendang itu...
lalu dia bernyanyi...
merdunya suara membuat sang
Putera terpukau...

Tetapi,
aku bukan bawang merah,
yang bersaudara tirikan seorang perempuan
cantik yang selalu iri hati...

Cuma andai bisa,
aku juga ingin merasa bermain buai
di bawah pohon yang rendang itu,
bukan buaian yang tergantung
di bawah palang besi... >.<"

Diary

Well, I know that we can't show our diary to any other strangerZ... but nothing to worry maybe... because this is my page, and no one will care for whateva that I will do here...haha! ;P I was really happy yesterday, because my lover and I are no longer arguing... and today,my mommy supposed to fly to Sabah...but everything's getting messy...so,she can't fly today...the flight is postpone to the day after tomorrow...

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